I am dreaming

    I am dreaming each day, that I can find my way.
Peace in my heart. I am here now. Things won't always be this hard. I am dreaming of a day when I can make breakfast with my favorite music playing. On that day I will be healthy. Things will be pretty. I will tend a delicate garden. I will pick fresh fruit and breathe fresh air.
I am dreaming. My daughter will go to school in a classic little outfit. I will have brushed her hair and kissed her cheeks. I will not worry. I will send her away to a happy little place where she has fun and plays with friends. I will not worry. I will not fight with myself.
      My heart will be open. I will work everyday to be successful in love. I will wrap my arms around my husband and kiss him....and he will stay. He will hold me. Together we will pray for the safety of our love. I am dreaming of a day.  I will chat with friends and neighbors. We'll laugh and joke and sing. I will share my smile. I'm hopeful of these things. I am dreaming I am dreaming. I am dreaming.

Each day I get older. "The song I came to sing remains unsung to this day.
I have spent my days in stringing
and in unstringing my instrument."

   I am dreaming of the chance just to be free. I want those times, admiration and affection. Freedom from a pain that self-indulgence sows. I'll share my freedom with everyone who knows. In my dream I will surrender, to all things honest and true. Even if their painful, even if their new. Acknowledgement enlightens my heart. Bringing healing. Always kneeling. I am dreaming of a morning so bright. I'm getting closer each day. I will find my pleasantries. I will wash away.